atelophobia.

Thursday, April 29, 2010

8:02 PM

life is not about harboring suicide thoughts;

life is not about complaining about the world;

life is definitely not about finding who reported and whack him.

life is moving forward - not for revenge but as a better person.

why do people think i will throw myself into despair?

i won't.

i've got better things to do than to relac one corner, sit and cry about it. 7 months from now, when i get my O level results slip, i want to cry; cry because all the efforts put in now will be worth it. i won't look back and say,

"hey, why was i so stupid? i shld have pulled myself together!"

i will graduate with flying colours.

i promise dad and mom, i promise my brother, my sister. all my friends.

P.S. i came across this story on my friend's facebook

a guy had a crush on this girl. he follows her wherever she goes. one day the girl noticed and asked him:

girl: why do you keep following me?
boy: because you're so pretty and i think i'm falling for you.
girl: really? but you haven't met my friend yet. she's prettier than me and she's standing right behind you.
boy: *looks behind but found no one* are you making fun of me? there's no one behind me..
girl: no, but if you really loved me, you won't look back.

Monday, April 26, 2010

10:50 PM

wtf man o.O

9:43 PM

an old man was playing the harmonica, trying to make ends meet. and while standing, waiting for the traffic to turn green, some teens just had to shoot their mouth all over the places :\ they don't wanna donate, fine. but no need suan that old man right? idiotic assholes. totally no brains, their skull got cavity -.-

today, many people told me many things. i suppose the most impactful one was the talk with that somebody. i didn't knew it would be this way :\

Sunday, April 25, 2010

7:38 PM

why isn't there a swing near my house? :\

Thursday, April 22, 2010

9:52 PM

so fast, a week has passed.

it was so close, yet so far.

i have mixed emotions now - sad because yeah, yknow. but i'm rejoicing about the fact that i have friends, teachers and brothers who care so much about me.

its kinda hard, especially when everyone tells me to pull together. i mean no offence, but saying and doing are 2 different things. it wasn't that easy sitting in class for lessons on wednesday; it definitely wasn't easy standing outside the hall during assembly.

sadly, time isn't on my side. i don't have much time to pull together, straighten my thinking and get down to my studies, after all prelim 2 is coming closer day by day, eventually O level examinations. within the month, i promise - before my chma performance, i'll be okay.

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

9:37 PM

i suppose a picture paints a thousand words?

how about the one below - a piece of paper, with a ink blot on it.

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

10:11 PM

tml is investiture for student leaders. i'm not attending, i'm no longer a student leader.

to the sec4 prefects:

i'm really sorry for whatever wrong i've done to you before, i just hope that you won't hold it against me. it has been a nice 2 years working with you all. i cannot pass out with you all, i broke our promise we made last year to tiger teo. well then again, you guys are the better prefects, i just wasted all of your time all these time i'm in PB.

anyway, i wanna say that i really accept my punishment, i was a student leader and yet i went ahead to flout the rules. please don't worry, i won't go do stupid things. i'm okay, just give me some time?

thanks for the company today. don't worry, i won't say what happened at bk (:

Monday, April 19, 2010

9:35 PM

who am i?

i'm tan zheng yee.

a robot, totally void of emotions and feelings,

because i died on friday, 16th April 2010.

i am a robot.

i am built only to fulfill my objectives.

i have crazily arranged red, blue, yellow and green wires all in my head.

and my objective is to score for my O levels.

sadly, nothing you do or say is gonna turn me back, and i figured you probably seen "sorry" on this blog too many times. wait till june, wait till my prelim 2 is over. then you will see.

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

9:39 PM

hahah i found this online.

the top 10 reasons why you should date a soccer player! :D

1. we have the right touch.

2. we are used to scoring.

3. we can go in soft, or hard.

4. we will make you scream for more.

5. sweating is no problem.

6. skill is definite.

7. we can play anywhere and anytime.

8. we can go on for 90 mins in at least 11 positions

9. we are not afraid to get down and dirty.

10. we know how to take it down the middle.

HAHAH, definitely has sexual notations in it. confirm, guarantee plus chop (;

okay, tml amaths test on the whole of calculus, andddddddddddd, i'm screwed. wlau for some freaking reason my head feels damn light. my world is spinning.

What You Do to Me - We The Kings

hey hey hey hey
my head is spinning cos of you
hey hey hey hey
you've no clue what you do to me

(;

Saturday, April 10, 2010

10:58 PM

there's just this really annoying and disturbing thought in my mind recently :\ yknow when i enlist, i secretly hope there will be some conflict, so that the army must be sent into action. HAHAH i know its weird (and violent..), but what to do?

and i think i have violent inclinations?! hahah like today, go scgs carnival. people go there meet friends, play, eat. cat high go there play soccer, basketball. hahahha! no la, its cos friends all busy with stalls, so we play what we play best :D then suay suay got this guy keep shoulder-charging me, when 3v3 =.= i go elbow him. lols wtf.

so me, yuan ye, joel and daryl went there in catholic high pe shirts. hahah! got some china scholar go there is shirt, in the end sweat like shit. wah but their school really damn big, and nice. but cat highhh is nice too! :D then we keep disturbing people.

girls: *to friends* hey wait lehh!
us: sure!

yuan ye walked towards the announcement table, which is the song dedication booth.

yy: eh can help me make announcement?

after awhile..

girls: to DARYL ONG, your friend is looking for you. would DARYL ONG come to the lobby now, from catholic high. i repeat, DARYL ONG.

hahhaah (:

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

8:09 PM

hey ggp! for you, cheer up alright :)

and if you need somebody, 我確定我會在, 不會走開

Monday, April 5, 2010

10:32 PM

omggg i feel damn sian already. how time flies. from january, we told ourselves that we've got 10 months. now it's freaking april! and i'm guessing alot of ppl haven't even started revision luh :\ these few days mdm ee has been doing amths revision, i realised i couldn't do some of my sec 3 topics. die D:

well, there are 6 more months from now i guess.

looking at your picture,
from when we first met,
you gave me a smile,
that i could never forget.

Sunday, April 4, 2010

11:29 PM

i miss running with you,
i miss kicking you hard,
i miss doing magical step-overs around you,
i miss seeing you destroy the goalkeeper.

I Miss You, my dear soccer ball D:

if he treats you guys like this, why bother calling him a friend? :\ the last thing is that he does/say smth to you that makes you upset and he's a dead jerk.

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